For over the past three decades, it has been my passion learning about the wounds we’ve all suffered during our youth and formative years.
It’s not what will happen to you, which will change your life, I spoke out one night of lecturing …but rather what has happened long ago, which has already changed your life.
While young and innocent, most of us knowingly or unknowingly have made life-changing vows or agreements while in the midst of abuse or emotional, psychological or physical harm and pain. These past hurts or wounds, while eliciting powerful emotions of hate, anger bitterness or rage, have conjured dark agreements with the Father of Lies.
John 8:44 says that all lies come from the Father of Lies, who is the Devil.
It has been his strategy to get us to make these dark vows and then to live from them. He uses the most important people in our lives to originate these lies: we’re no good or unlovable or too ugly, too fat, or too skinny; we’re stupid, losers or failures. The list can be quite long and the voices of others soon become our voices, echoing selfdepreciating and ugly curses over our own hearts and minds.
Since these curses and lies were spoken over us at such a time when we were mythical, fanciful and magical at heart, that is, our ability to believe the unbelievable; the curses and lies became part of our identity and belief system. We end up living them out like prophecies written in ancient manuscripts.
These “prophecies” end up directing our lives and careers; our relationships and associations. To bring healing to these past wounds and nullify the agreements is a path which only few have taken. Even though freedom and wholeness is possible, many of us prefer to live out our lives in the seclusion and cover of darkness and duplicity. We’ve come too far, or lived too long with our false persona; the mere thought of dismissing or exposing our poser-selves is too frightening!
So, we play hide and seek at work, at home and especially at Church. The longer we play this nightmarish game, the more hardened and sadistic we become to our own wounded heart and soul. This process continues until we become addicted to sex, drugs, alcohol or lies. Or, perhaps our drug of choice is our reputation or religiosity. Perhaps you’ve masqueraded so long and for so many years at church, home and work, that you are even lost to yourself. This is as deadly as a heart attack and a silent killer, just as hypertension and high blood pressure can kill you. Why, we’re simply a walking time bomb of contradiction, lies and hypocrisy.
Oh, but my dear friend there is such hope, and this is why I am writing this to you. Please read on…
Isaiah has said; “Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.” Isaiah 5:20.
Jesus said; “…And if the light you think you have is actually darkness, how deep that darkness is!” Matthew 6:23.
I know all about this. This was, and is my life. It is both my past and my journey. There is a Redeemer and a Healer. He is in pursuit of you, not to judge you, but to redeem you, heal you and restore you to who you were meant to be!
Your True Father wants you back. As the late Brennen Manning has so often quoted:
“God accepts you as you are, and not as you should be. Because you’re never going to be as you should be.”
The Good News, is that it’s God’s responsibility to transform you as you should be!
This is not your wife’s job, your boss’s job, your best friend’s job; it’s not your pastor or priest’s job or any self-help guru’s job to change you. It is the job of a loving God, who’s waiting for you to call out to him; “Abba”, “Papa” or “Daddy” or even “Father-God!”
The only way to the Father is through the Son. And it is the Son, Jesus Christ who’s taken upon himself all the curses and dark vows ever spoken in any language and tongue against us, so that we may be loved rather than destroyed.
Do you see this? Do you see how amazing actual living and loving can be; if all the crap, hurts, wounds and pain can be taken away?
Oh, and it can be taken away. All the guilt, shame and self-loathing; all the self-hatred and hatred of others can be removed. All the self-doubts and doubting of others; all the lost trust of self and others and the cynical and diabolic distrust and suspicion can and will be gone.
Just say this prayer out load, or even in a whisper:
Dear Jesus Christ, I stand before you, exposed, scared, ashamed and afraid. I have lived a wrong life and have hurt myself and others. I confess to you my wrong doings, my mistakes and my faults. I acknowledge my need of forgiveness from you and my need to forgive others. I also forgive myself for the harm I’ve done to me. I believe in your Word of Truth and that you lived a sinless life, died on a cross of suffering because you took upon yourself all my sin, all the curses spoken over me and all my wrong doings. You were buried in a tomb and were raised to life on the third day, making it possible for me to be forgiven and to have new life, new hope and a future. I believe these things in my heart and I confess and acknowledge them with my mouth so that I am saved and redeemed. I am now your true son or daughter and I can now call you my Abba or Papa, as you have put your Spirit into my transformed and purified heart forever and ever. Thank you for my salvation and healing, in the Name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
Now, simply live a new life and understand that you now belong to God as his child and you’ve become his responsibility. He is no dead-beat-dad. He is indeed a Mighty God, an Everlasting Father, a Wonderful Counselor and a Prince of Peace. All authority is upon his shoulders and his Kingdom shall know no end.
Welcome home. Welcome to a Loving God and a Wonderful Savior!
The danger is to do nothing. To do nothing is to remain in darkness and under curses and false agreements. Do something with your new life and truly live! No longer agree with the dark voices in the back of your mind, rather reject their curses and foul thoughts in the Name and Authority of Jesus Christ.
Give the Father of Lies an Eviction Notice and cancel all your curses!